I didn't realize until now how pleasantly tumultous this past year has been. Getting my first apartment, finishing nursing school and graduating from college, new car, entering the real world as a new nurse, and getting married. Now that it is all done, I'm looking back and wondering "How did I do this?!" After the wedding, we quickly packed for the honeymoon and were in Jamaica the next day. The day we got back, we finally opened our gifts from the wedding and then I worked the next 3 nights. After sleeping for a few hours after my last night, we packed and headed to Tennessee for my 21st birthday. We got back on Sunday, quickly cleaned what we could of the apartment, and then celebrated my birthday with my family. That evening was the first time that Trav and I were truly able to sit down in our apartment and relax with each other. We reflected on how much had changed in that year and agreed that we were both ready for things to slow down a little bit! Maybe it's the newlywed bug biting me, but all I want to do is spend quality time with my husband and grow as one with each other. No more major life changes for a while (hopefully).
That being said, I was a little concerned about not having any major things to look forward to after all these changes took place. I am the type of person who always has to be busy doing something, planning something, or working on something. Before the wedding, I was a little scared of how this type of personality would fare after so many major life changes have come and gone in such a short time. I had had so many people tell me "it's all downhill from here, your college years are the best of your life." College was an amazing time and I learned so much about myself. I would be lying if I said I didn't miss it, but I've realized that I have much better things to look forward to! My college years were a wonderful chapter in my life, but I knew they would only be a few years. My married years will be the next wonderful chapter, but this will be a lifetime's journey. Unless something awful were to happen to either one of us, this isn't something I know I'll have to close the book on in a few years time. I usually can't stand to not have a plan or goal to work towards, but I am completely in a state of bliss because of the idea of just being with each other.
At the cabin this past weekend, Trav and I were drooling over the perfection of this house. It was basically everything we had ever dreamed about when we mention the "one day, when we have a real house" conversation. However, with our jobs so far away from each other, there is no way that we could feasibly settle into a home with our name on it right now. So many people have asked us, "When are you getting a bigger place?" When we came home Sunday, had our little decorations everywhere, our tiny little kitchen filled with appliances, and our little bed all made up, it made me realize that for now, this is our home. It may be small, and it may not be the log cabin of our dreams, but this is our home for now. And I'm okay with that.
Looking out the window at the beautiful leaves, in our little apartment, I don't know that I have ever been happier than I am now. I am so excited to see where this journey of life takes us :)
That being said, I was a little concerned about not having any major things to look forward to after all these changes took place. I am the type of person who always has to be busy doing something, planning something, or working on something. Before the wedding, I was a little scared of how this type of personality would fare after so many major life changes have come and gone in such a short time. I had had so many people tell me "it's all downhill from here, your college years are the best of your life." College was an amazing time and I learned so much about myself. I would be lying if I said I didn't miss it, but I've realized that I have much better things to look forward to! My college years were a wonderful chapter in my life, but I knew they would only be a few years. My married years will be the next wonderful chapter, but this will be a lifetime's journey. Unless something awful were to happen to either one of us, this isn't something I know I'll have to close the book on in a few years time. I usually can't stand to not have a plan or goal to work towards, but I am completely in a state of bliss because of the idea of just being with each other.
At the cabin this past weekend, Trav and I were drooling over the perfection of this house. It was basically everything we had ever dreamed about when we mention the "one day, when we have a real house" conversation. However, with our jobs so far away from each other, there is no way that we could feasibly settle into a home with our name on it right now. So many people have asked us, "When are you getting a bigger place?" When we came home Sunday, had our little decorations everywhere, our tiny little kitchen filled with appliances, and our little bed all made up, it made me realize that for now, this is our home. It may be small, and it may not be the log cabin of our dreams, but this is our home for now. And I'm okay with that.
Looking out the window at the beautiful leaves, in our little apartment, I don't know that I have ever been happier than I am now. I am so excited to see where this journey of life takes us :)
Aw. :) Well said.
ReplyDeleteI concur completely, Liz. It felt amazing to actually have a place with Bob that was Ours. It's not a dream residence, but it's fun to dream and talk about all the work/arts&crafts space we'll have and the land around our house.
I'm so happy for you guys!