When I first started night shift in July, my first day working off was tough, but the other days were okay. In the last month and a half, every day off has been miserable. I'm too tired to stay awake all day without feeling so, so sick, but if I sleep for even 3 hours, my body thinks I'm ready to stay up all night. When I do finally fall asleep around 9am, I can only sleep for 2-4 hours, and it's very light sleep. The whole time I'm awake, I feel so sick all day/night. Needless to say, this isn't exactly the greatest schedule for newlyweds! I'm awake and home for around 3-4 hours that Trav is awake each day, and that's not even an every day thing. There's been several nights that I've kept Trav awake by being awake, and that makes me feel terrible. Since it doesn't look like day shift will be happening any time soon, it looks like we'll just have to find ways to deal with it for now. Thankfully, Trav is super understanding and lets me sleep when I am actually sleeping. On Thanksgiving, I was up for 28 hours straight so I could get to see my family. From Monday morning to yesterday, I was up for 30 hours straight. Thankfully, I did actually sleep last night for more than 4 hours, but this is such a rough routine. We are both so blessed to have full-time jobs with great pay and have everything that we do, but boy would I ever love to go back to days!
On a side note, I made 'Chicken Spaghetti' and 'Baked Onion Rings' from Pinterest the other day and they were delish! Yall oughta repin :)
Wednesday, November 28, 2012
Wednesday, October 17, 2012
Everything will change, but love remains the same
As a newlywed, there are so many new and exciting changes going on. I saw several of my other friends doing the blog thing, so I figured why not?! This will be a place for my thoughts, ideas, and a place that I can look back and see our journey as newlyweds. So here goes:
I didn't realize until now how pleasantly tumultous this past year has been. Getting my first apartment, finishing nursing school and graduating from college, new car, entering the real world as a new nurse, and getting married. Now that it is all done, I'm looking back and wondering "How did I do this?!" After the wedding, we quickly packed for the honeymoon and were in Jamaica the next day. The day we got back, we finally opened our gifts from the wedding and then I worked the next 3 nights. After sleeping for a few hours after my last night, we packed and headed to Tennessee for my 21st birthday. We got back on Sunday, quickly cleaned what we could of the apartment, and then celebrated my birthday with my family. That evening was the first time that Trav and I were truly able to sit down in our apartment and relax with each other. We reflected on how much had changed in that year and agreed that we were both ready for things to slow down a little bit! Maybe it's the newlywed bug biting me, but all I want to do is spend quality time with my husband and grow as one with each other. No more major life changes for a while (hopefully).
That being said, I was a little concerned about not having any major things to look forward to after all these changes took place. I am the type of person who always has to be busy doing something, planning something, or working on something. Before the wedding, I was a little scared of how this type of personality would fare after so many major life changes have come and gone in such a short time. I had had so many people tell me "it's all downhill from here, your college years are the best of your life." College was an amazing time and I learned so much about myself. I would be lying if I said I didn't miss it, but I've realized that I have much better things to look forward to! My college years were a wonderful chapter in my life, but I knew they would only be a few years. My married years will be the next wonderful chapter, but this will be a lifetime's journey. Unless something awful were to happen to either one of us, this isn't something I know I'll have to close the book on in a few years time. I usually can't stand to not have a plan or goal to work towards, but I am completely in a state of bliss because of the idea of just being with each other.
At the cabin this past weekend, Trav and I were drooling over the perfection of this house. It was basically everything we had ever dreamed about when we mention the "one day, when we have a real house" conversation. However, with our jobs so far away from each other, there is no way that we could feasibly settle into a home with our name on it right now. So many people have asked us, "When are you getting a bigger place?" When we came home Sunday, had our little decorations everywhere, our tiny little kitchen filled with appliances, and our little bed all made up, it made me realize that for now, this is our home. It may be small, and it may not be the log cabin of our dreams, but this is our home for now. And I'm okay with that.
Looking out the window at the beautiful leaves, in our little apartment, I don't know that I have ever been happier than I am now. I am so excited to see where this journey of life takes us :)
That being said, I was a little concerned about not having any major things to look forward to after all these changes took place. I am the type of person who always has to be busy doing something, planning something, or working on something. Before the wedding, I was a little scared of how this type of personality would fare after so many major life changes have come and gone in such a short time. I had had so many people tell me "it's all downhill from here, your college years are the best of your life." College was an amazing time and I learned so much about myself. I would be lying if I said I didn't miss it, but I've realized that I have much better things to look forward to! My college years were a wonderful chapter in my life, but I knew they would only be a few years. My married years will be the next wonderful chapter, but this will be a lifetime's journey. Unless something awful were to happen to either one of us, this isn't something I know I'll have to close the book on in a few years time. I usually can't stand to not have a plan or goal to work towards, but I am completely in a state of bliss because of the idea of just being with each other.
At the cabin this past weekend, Trav and I were drooling over the perfection of this house. It was basically everything we had ever dreamed about when we mention the "one day, when we have a real house" conversation. However, with our jobs so far away from each other, there is no way that we could feasibly settle into a home with our name on it right now. So many people have asked us, "When are you getting a bigger place?" When we came home Sunday, had our little decorations everywhere, our tiny little kitchen filled with appliances, and our little bed all made up, it made me realize that for now, this is our home. It may be small, and it may not be the log cabin of our dreams, but this is our home for now. And I'm okay with that.
Looking out the window at the beautiful leaves, in our little apartment, I don't know that I have ever been happier than I am now. I am so excited to see where this journey of life takes us :)
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